Pep Talks from the little voice in my head.

Random thoughts I have during the day, things I'm trying to work out in my head.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

What a difference a little perspective makes

My son got a B on his Math test! I'm so thrilled that I could pee myself while hopping around doing a happy dance. I homeschooled him for three years and put him back into school this year (6th grade) with his IEP there to make sure they help him with his learning disabilities. I would have been thrilled with a C but a B! I'm ready to shout from the rooftops. He couldn't tell that 5x6 and 6x5 are the same problem just a few months ago. I knew in my heart that if I sent him to school that there would be someone there who would be able to reach him. Somebody who would say you can do it rather than do it for him like I had and hoped that he'd absorb it by watching me work out the problems.

This made me think about the fact that I was so upset with myself when I got a B in a class that I knew I could have gotten an A in. I beat myself up for the same grade that I'm celebrating for my son getting. Why am I so hard on myself? Sure he has a learning disability and I am supposedly super smart but the fact of the matter is that when faced with our obstacles, we both have a lot going on that we have to deal with in order to get a good grade and he had some really excellent teachers working with him while I was not asking for help, barely taking time away from my other duties or even facebook for that matter, to study. He was able to over come his obstacles with hard work and determination, I was lazy. So I should be thankful that I got that B and not the grade I probably deserved and if I'd made time...I could have gotten that A. I like to blame all my chores and errands for not getting my school work done...but they don't stop me from playing Castleville, so really it's just excuses. Perspective...it helps to have some!